here

I had been coming back all this time for you

I had never an idea you were here or that I was traveling here

I don't disappoint anyone

I was never expected you are not here

so it seems I

had been coming back all this time to where I thought you would be

or to where I thought you would expect me to come for you

but you are not here

there was no you to expect me to come to this place only the

possibility of you possibly being here possibly expecting

me, hopefully

there was no you ever, nor I, except strangely then

there was

and we knew without knowing paused kind

of shucking against each other

I had been coming back to that all this time

though it is not there and never really was - it still tastes sweet and smells

sweet like may

I wish you were here, and that we both ever were